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the CAVEthis is who i am
because it is who i say i am
not because you had to tell me.
you think you are so right
about everything; about me.
you think you can control my life
with judging eyes and whispered words.
because obviously you know best,
and obviously i'm just a kid.
with no where to go
and no one to hold.
this is who i am
because it is what i found
when i went searching for answers.
i looked in baited breaths
and old conversations,
behind my wandering eyes.
and i dove deep into hysteria,
resurfaced in my cave of a mind.
i took in my reflection in the puddles;
murky and dark
bleak and obsolete.
this is who i am
because this is who i'm meant to be.
DAY ONE. ten things ten peoplea sometimes friend - -
it's like i don't really matter to you
all will be fine, perfect, we'll be laughing
then somebody else shows up and it's all gone
i'm only your friend until someone cooler comes around
i don't see you the same - -
we use to be just best friends
one misfit boy and a girl that didn't know how to be a girl
we could play all day long and there's nothing to it
now not theni didn't even know you
but i felt that i could trust you
with my life, with my soul
with everything i've got
you were the boy i've never had
the knight in shining armor
MY knight in shining armor
i don't know what made you do
what could have ever made you so sad?
was it something i said? something i did?
or am i just not that important
not even a goodbye did i get from you
but do i blame you? never ever
i'd never blame you for a thing
you were perfect, an angel from heaven
you just had a dark side, that's all.
it's too late now
i know that now
but i have to say it before i burst
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU
and nothing will be the same.
this cut was the deepest
you didn't fight back
and all i can do is wish i were there
i wish i could have stopped it
was there anyway i could have stopped it?
it's too late now
i know that now
and all i can say is I LOVE[D] YOU
rest in peace, babe.
wings.i have wings.
glorious wings, white & pure.
the people around here don't like that much.
surrounded by little people
in this little town,
they won't let me fly.
they come to clip my wings at night
and they pull the feathers with pliers.
saying, "you are different, you are not like us."
and when i awake, i feel the pain.
and my wings won't lift my broken spirits.
all they'll do is drag.
you see, i have dreams, big dreams.
dreams too big for this little town.
dreams that want to burst out of me.
they want to keep me grounded,
but my head's already in the clouds.
i can't stay in the midwest forever.
i want to feel the warm california sun on my face.
and watch the waves roll up the rocks in maine.
i want to be anywhere but here.
it was like god put me here
just so i could get out
he said "you're smart, you'll figure it out."
but they don't know about these talks
these late night talks i have
"you can't know anything, we haven't told you yet."
and as these dreams come back to me,
i start to
My Worldcotton candy clouds
in a sky of vanilla lace,
the sun dazzles like your smile
in this fantasy place.
the brooke babbles like your laugh,
water glimmering like your eyes
the grass soft, just like your skin
and in your shine, i lie.
some say this place is make believe
to my imagination, there's no cure
but what they don't understand
is that my world, is her.
Our LoveOur love is like the bluest of oceans
It's wide and bright and never ending deep
Passion waves roll in rhythmatic motions
Each marvelous crest like a mountains steep
Our love is like the brilliant nighttime sky
Stars twinkling, sparkling beacons in the dark
Beneath those shining lights my love will lie
And on my heart you'll hit the highest marks
Our love is like the tallest mountain top
A climbing quest, awards the greatest prize
Never will this journey come to a stop
Adventure will soon be my big demise
So basically, what I'm trying to say
I love you in one thousand different ways
DAY TWO. nine truths about mei don't want to be trapped in my own head
it's this dull throb throb throb in the back of my mind
always pounding, never resting, always there
nobody understands all these thoughts that swirl around
so dangerous, i'm afraid of myself, i can't let them get me
i don't want to go to bed at night, the quiet makes it stronger
why can't i stop it?
these feelings are going to eat me alive
every time i see your smiling face my heart races
these tingly feelings prick at my skin, your touch is red hot
i know you're bad to me, i've seen what you can do
but like an addict i just keep coming back for more
i'm just so in love with you
truth is, i want to start this life all over
i want to be someone else, someone better then what i've got now
i'm sick of all this insecurity, of all these things i've let happen
i want to go back in time, rewind and make things better
i wouldn't lose my friends, i wouldn't break their hearts
better yet i want to run away, take on a new name
when you fell from heaven Lorelei had moved her own face into him so it was like the two were cowering into each other, two souls that had found solitude in the fact that they shared this pain. Not exactly the same pain, so to say. But it was pain. And each seemed content to sit and know that they weren't the only one in the world that felt that way. At least, that's the way that Kassidy felt. It was almost like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. He was no longer the only wolf that had such strong emotions and memories. He had her now, somebody that had gone through something bad and lived ( physically lived at least; sometimes he wasn't sure if he was still mentally or emotionally alive, and he was almost positive that his spiritual health had taken a huge hit from his incident. ) To think... how many others were there like them out there? Wolves that had to hold all those feelings of sadness and fear inside them to keep from com
What happenedWhat happen to kissing and hugging
Instead of dissing and missing
What happen to love and peace
Instead of hate and war
What happen to allies and families
Instead of enemies and misery
Where's my long walk on the beach
Instead of a chat-room on the internet
I want to walk along side you
Not friend you on Facebook or Myspace
I want to see and touch you
Not watch you on Youtube
I want to leave next door to you
I want to draw with you
Not look at your pictures over the internet
What happen to happiness and friends
Instead of sex and sins
What happen to the world like it was before
I want to see the world
Not be stuck in it
on old sanzu - absolutely true fictionlast fall i stole my friend down by the tama river. we sang. we danced. we skipped dead fish like rocks and watched them get swallowed by the undertow. we got sick off of bad chinese food and went skinny-dipping and then a week later she drowned herself.
her uncle was a yakuza, i think, but he really just wanted to be al pacino or something. anyway, she loved him a lot. maybe that’s why she went down the way she went down; cement shoes. not real cement, but it was the same idea. she had two cloth bags with yellow-painted cinderblocks inside, and they were tied to her ankles like the prisoners’ chains from o brother where art thou.
in my mind’s eye i can see her, limping dreadfully close to the edge of the current, her left hand gripping at her breasts through a loose t-shirt. kneeling by the wastelands, elbows in the gravel, crawling forward out into the water. angry like a dermis under wool, all teeth and salt and sand. sleepy, submissive, sublimated.
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